Three weeks from now is the 1st anniversary of this blog.
I don’t know much about emojis, but I’m excited-ish. I’m definitely happy.
I’ve been beating myself up because I’m not the best planner. Oh let’s be honest. I’m a horrible planner, and I’m consistent at being inconsistent. I couldn’t even stick to one blog theme for one year. Looking back, I see lack. I see what I didn’t do, could have done, how I procrastinated, was just lazy, etc.
And I wailed at God. Is this what I’m really supposed to be doing? Is this really Your plan? I’m not very good at it, and when I feel like I did my best, what have I to show for it?
This encouraging post from God Sized Dreams came across me yesterday, showing me through His Word what my heart needed to hear.
“Master, we toiled all night [exhaustingly] and caught nothing [in our nets]. But on the ground of Your word, I will lower the nets [again]” Luke 5:5 (AMP).
I’m tired with nothing to show for it, but because You said so, I’ll do it again.
Friends! I’m going to make it to 1 year!
One year of intentional blogging. Of using my writing to honor God. Of meeting other bloggers. Of learning. Of writing. Of owning up to my dream, to God’s plan, to depending on Him to finish what He started.
I’ve fallen short so many times, and after each time is another lesson in trying harder. Another lesson about myself, about faith, and about God’s grace.
My excitement is a little dampened by anxiety, a little fear. I’m planning for what’s coming up in this blog. Tightening my focus. Finding my rhythm. And I’ll let you know all about it as it happens.
But let’s be honest again. I’ll still be a horrible inconsistent planner. I will drop the ball, that’s for sure. The theme will change again. I will make mistakes. But I will try to be as authentic as possible, to open up more, and to share with you what I’m learning along the way.
Okay, now I’m excited!
Now I look back and don’t see the lack. Instead, I’m seeking out the growth. And I see that God has been faithful, helping me grow, giving me strength, and lavishing on me grace.
When you look back, find your growth. Seek out the fingerprints of God in your life. They’re there because He never left your side.