Dear Diary, Where Do I Jump?

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May 10, 2006
Wednesday

Dear God,

Hello. I need Your help. You know what’s going on in my life, and I’ll tell You because I don’t know where to go.

All my life, the road has been clear. There were moments of blind visibility, but I knew where I was going. Now I’m standing on a divide. I have to jump left or right before I fall into the crevice. On one is side all things I know. On the other side is all things unknown. Where do I jump?

Maybe You ask where I want to jump. I want to jump to unknown territory. How many times have I written to You about my frustrations? But the idea of leaving is so foreign to me. It’s so weird.

What’s Your will? I know I’ve got choices and wherever I go, You are with me. But what is Your will? I’ll lay it all down at Your feet right now. Everything, I’ll give it to You.

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Anthem Lights has a song, “Just Fall,” that is a great response to this.

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The song sums it up for me 🙂

I thought I had to jump to something. I thought it was up to me to seal my fate. But I just had to fall into God’s arms and trust that He knows what He’s doing.

“I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for” Jeremiah 29:11 (The Message)