She paused, pen mid-air. Her mouth hung open. Her eyes confused, baffled, lost. Words I never want to describe my nurse ever again.
Today, I’m going to get real about something all women go through, but that I only go through 1-2 times a year. When the nurse asked me when I last had my period, I told her the truth. Six to eight months ago, and no I’m not pregnant.
I don’t know exactly why this is, the scarce visit from Aunt Flo, not the non-pregnancy. Even though I’ve never been in a relationship, I’m pretty sure I know how pregnancy happens.
Anyway, when I had health insurance, I was too young to care to ask my doctor about my irregularity. Now that I’m older, I don’t have coverage and no doctor to consult. Sometimes I do get scared that it’s a severe medical condition that affects my fertility. But usually I blame it on heredity. My mom was the same way at my age and my sister is the same way now.
Why this honesty – maybe too much honesty – on a public blog? Because the prompt for FMF is “She,” and because women go through lists of things they worry about and lists of things they’re going to worry about.
Health is a pretty big issue, and something we ought to worry be on top of. But I’m at a situation where I literally can’t afford to worry about this particular health issue. And when there are things I can’t do, I turn to the One who can.
Women worry too much. I know. I’m one of them. But we need to let our worries go, all of them, especially the ones we have no control over. Trust in the God who provides, heals, and cares for us instead.
Happy Friday everyone!
I’m also linking up with Fellowship Fridays from Christian Mommy Blogger, who taught me to be an intentional blogger. I mention that because this week was so busy my last post was Monday. This weekend is going to be busy too. Cheers to planning ahead…or the concept of planning ahead since I’ve yet to do just that!
While I have never had your problem, I have actually known many women who have. I also know that many of them ended up pregnant even while having this issue so while it could be an issue that affects fertility it might not affect it at all. And you are right to trust God with this. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you Misty! I don’t know a lot of women in the same boat as me and I’m glad to know they’re there 🙂
Worries, I am beginning to learn, are much of the time illusory. I have been one of those who worries a great deal. Letting go isn’t easy, but fantastic when it happens. Trusting that you can take the burden from your shoulders and no lightning bolt will zap you… that takes courage.
I hope you find a solution to your health concerns. Are there any free clinics in your area?
Tam, I’ve looked into free clinics but haven’t found one. But you’re right. It takes courage to let go and it’s so very fantastic to do it!
There are many free clinics you can go to, that will help you out. It most likely is a hormone imbalance but you should check it out
I also suspected a hormone imbalance but I’m not stressing myself up with worry anymore. Thanks for visiting, Nicole 🙂