One Word 2014: Ready

I was writing in my journal when God impressed one word in my heart: ready. I didn’t even know about one words or One Word 365 until I got on my bloglovin feed after my journal writing time and saw these posts about one words. The word “ready” have been bugging me and I realized that it was my word for 2014. But let me backtrack for a bit.

For a while, I’ve been redesigning my DIY blog. I decided to move it to WP and rebuild it as a blog/store. I knit 🙂 and a handful of friends have bought my scarves. I’ve had this little side thing for a while that I never pushed or worked on. It was just a thing I did. I knit scarves and you can buy them from me. No biggie. But something changed and I wanted an online store. I wanted to see where this could go. Researching online store designs somehow led me to seller’s permits and business licenses. Next thing I knew, I was looking into business plans because I want this small business. My friends could tell you that I am not the business type of person. Business talk, accounting stuff, and keeping track of receipts freak me out. So I stopped my research and cleaned my room.

I stumbled onto an old prayer journal. I was flipping through the entries when one caught my eye. A pastor with the gift of prophecy visited our church and he proclaimed some prophecies over my life. One of them was owning my own small business. I remembered some of the things he said to me, but I plain forgot about that little tidbit. But as I read those two little words scrawled in my late-night-I’m-up-journalling handwriting, the memory rushed back. I remember dismissing his words like Sarah laughed at having a child in her old age.

We both thought it was impossible because we’re just not that type of person. She’s too old. She’s no longer the type to bear children. I’m not a business type of person. I couldn’t run my own small business even if I wanted to. But I can’t deny what I wrote and what, I realized, God was impressing in my heart.

I’m ready, I wrote in my journal. Ready to grow my eMinistry. Ready for my own business. Ready to be an author. Ready for my husband. I am not afraid. I have fears and doubts, but I am not afraid.

*Sigh*

I have some explaining to do, especially about that husband bit, but I decided to be honest on this blog so embarrassingly honest I shall be.

I am ready. Not in that giddy-it’s-a-new-year-and-I’m-changing-my-life kind of way. It was an inner realization. An inner strength from God. I’m ready.

Then the next day didn’t go so well and I wrote, I thought I was ready but I fail and sin the same sins.

Which is why I was hesitant to write this post. Am I ready? What does that mean anyway? And what if, at the end of 2014, I’m exactly where I started? Doubts. They scratch at us all the time.

Ready. That’s my word for 2014. I’m not sure what small business I will have. Is it my knitting thing? Is it my writing? Is it both? Where will this blog go? Will it grow? Will I accomplish the goals I set out to do? Or will I fail spectacularly? The answers don’t matter.

I’m ready for what God has for me. That’s what the word “ready” is for. Desiring more from my hobby, researching business permits, finding an old journal, having one word stuck in my head, and stumbling across bloggers’ one words…I don’t believe it’s all a coincidence.

God is doing something. He’s always doing something in the lives of His children. I’m excited to see what 2014 will bring. I’m ready.

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